Stress and Sweetness (teaching my nursery class)

I really enjoy Sundays. It is really nice to be able to go to church. My husband an I teach nursery, which is 2 hours of taking care of 2 and 3 year olds, teaching them a lesson, singing time and lots of playing. It was really hard to deal with being around all those kids at first. I really was like "Why did they ask me to do this? I don't want to be reminded that I don't have any children!". At first it was really depressing, and I had a hard time handling it. Now there are a lot of things I love about it. I love playing with them and teaching them and comforting them when they are sad. Don't get me wrong, there are definitely those stressful moments. If a child is screaming for their parents or unhappy I get flustered. And I feel really guilty if I can't comfort them or help them feel better. And I feel guilty if it annoys me too, because I'm the adult and suppose to be able to deal with it. It makes me feel like I won't be a good Mom because inside I want to tell them to shut it! But I access the positive part of me and do my best to help distract them and get them to play. I am really grateful to have my husband there because he doesn't have a problem with taking them out to find their parents. I feel really embarrassed taking them out because I feel like I failed them in some way or it is like saying " I can't handle your kid!" I guess thats good training to become a parent is dealing with those type of feelings, am I right? But for the most part, its good. The kids in my class are so funny. I like to encourage them to be silly because I really want them to have fun in the class so that they want to be there. Last week we made a "train" with the chairs and they got on it and I took them on a trip to the North Pole. It was one of the kid's idea to make a train so I went with it! It is also really good to get them to respond to the lesson. They only have about a 3 minute attention span when it comes to that, but I try my best to keep them engaged. I don't expect much, but I still try. Its funny because usually I get nervous to be in nursery, but I end up having a good time, even with dealing with the crying and fighting between the kids sometimes. Anyways, I am really glad that I am able to get through it week after week. Its amazing how you can feel love for them and feel like they start to love you too. One of the little boys got hurt today, so I held him on my lap and he stayed for a while even after he felt better. It was very sweet. Anyway, life is good. I know I have some hard times ahead and some big decisions to make, but I am really grateful for the little sweet moments in my life.