My anxiety has been creeping up on me again. I had use of the car on Monday, so I went out to look for a few things for a couple of craft projects at home (an art project, reupholstering a chair and some other stuff). Seth also bought me some of those crazy Vibram 5 finger shoes on Saturday and I went looking for some toe socks to go with them. I've seen them at places like Target before, but of course the minute you start actually searching for something specific like toe socks, you can never find them. While I was out, I started getting anxious for no reason at all, heart pounding, shaky hands, that kind of thing. I wasn't dealing with being out very well. I would find some things to buy, but right before I went to buy them, I got anxious, shoved them on a shelf and had to quickly get out of the store. Don't know what that's about, but I haven't been dealing with stress well lately, just pushing it to the side to deal with later. I've been a bit of a hermit for a few months, not having daily access to a car might have gotten me used to being at home too much. Grr! I hate anxiety!
I hope I don't sound too pathetic. I feel like it sometimes. I was going through some stuff in storage and found a present I had gotten for my hubby to give to him when we got pregnant...I got it over a year ago. ug. that felt pretty pathetic. Oh, well, I do things like that, make plans,buy baby things, ect. because it helps keep the hope alive that it will happen one day. But finding these relics is kinda a downer too.
I hope tomorrow is better. Hey, if there is anything you guys reading would like to know or ask about, let me know. I'd love some topic ideas! This blog helps keep me going and I'd love to write about things you are interested in.
If you need a good laugh, just picture me wearing these:
hee hee, those are weird! I think they would freak my toes out. I could never wear toe socks for that reason either.
ReplyDeleteI had a breakdown this past week. 3 of them actually. I think letting those feelings out is a way to get past it. Or at least come to an understanding.
Anyway, i love ya, just keep writing about whatever comes to mind, i love reading it!
yeah, those shoes are pretty crazy, but a lot more comfortable than you would think. They're actually kinda fun to run in.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your support and understanding. Love ya!