2nd trimester update

It's been quite a while since I have written! Well, life kinda takes over sometimes. Lately I've been going through some depression, which hasn't helped, and I've been working on it. It seems so weird that I would feel that way when it took me so long to get pregnant and finally am and I feel that way. I kept thinking "why don't I feel happy all the time?" Then I feel like I should be happy all the time which makes it worse, because then I feel guilty. But I also recognize I still have a life, and life is hard, and that I have all these pregnancy hormones to boot. I'm slowly coming out of it now. It seems like the past few weeks have been especially stressful, which then I feel guilty about because I don't want it to harm my baby. But I have to realize that some things are just out of my control.

Anyway, I am well into my second trimester (yeah!). My stomach problems aren't as bad, but now I've got that sweet pregnancy congestion going on all the time. I have to say that I do like getting symptoms, though while unpleasant still remind me I'm actually pregnant and not just getting fat. My belly is starting to round out but it's still not obvious that I'm pregnant. So I am 17 weeks and have an ultrasound appointment on September 22nd! So exciting! Just under three weeks and I'll get to find out the gender (hopefully). Everyone seems to think it's a girl. I'm not sure what I will have and I really detest it when people ask me what I want. Just seems unfair to have a preference when I've waited so long to have a baby. I will be excited no matter what.

I've been progressing well, but I did have some bleeding that lasted for 5 days that didn't seem to have a reason for it. I call my doctor's office and talked to a midwife because I've been working with them, and they told me to watch out for it again even though it didn't seem serious this time (no cramping along with it and it was more like spotting). But I did have to go have a rhogam shot, being a negative blood type. It wasn't too bad getting the shot, but yeah, was a little stressful.

So I am just waiting for my appointment pretty much. I've also been taking care of my husband, because he had a minor surgery last week. He was able to go back to work today, so he is recovering well. It's time for me to get back into exercise. I finally felt like I can do it again and I just got some prenatal exercise videos that I ordered so I am excited to get back into a exercise schedule! I know it will help me deal with the depression as well. I'll try to post more too!