It's a......

BOY! Hubby and I were a little shocked to find that out at the ultrasound. I didn't think I really knew one way or another, but I think we were both more expecting the baby to be a girl. It's still a little strange to me, but so is the whole actually-having-a-baby thing. The ultrasound went well and the baby is right on track, but I sort of have a problem. My placenta is not only too low, but it is also covering my cervix. The midwife sounded pretty confident that it would move, but if it doesn't, I would have to have a C-section. Boo. I am all about natural birth so that is obviously something I don't want. The problem with that condition is that the baby needs the placenta to survive birth and if it is covering the cervix that means you would to "birth" the placenta first, which means the baby couldn't survive. So I am having another ultrasound in 10 weeks to check it again. I'm surprisingly not that worried about it. Even if I end up having a C-section (the total opposite of my plan), I've been feeling okay about it. I just want what's best for the baby. But I am still hoping and praying I can give birth the natural way (I'm against using and drugs during labor too). I guess I will plan my ideal birth situation, but still be open to different possibilities too. Anyway, I've got some pics to share with you.

Cutie!

yep, that's a boy allright!

His cute lil' foot

Progressive Belly Pics

So I am finally getting around to posting my belly documentation. I started thinking I would take pics every week wearing the same outfit, and well, guess I wasn't too dedicated to that idea anyway. But I have taken a few pics, that counts for something!

Here we go:

Beginning- 4 weeks

15 weeks starts to show

19 weeks- it sure popped out in a few short weeks!

at present: 20 weeks

So I had my ultrasound on Thursday and there were a few surprises there. But the baby is healthy and that's what I really care about it. I will post some more details, including the gender, once everyone in our immediate families know. I can't believe I'm halfway through this pregnancy already!

2nd trimester update

It's been quite a while since I have written! Well, life kinda takes over sometimes. Lately I've been going through some depression, which hasn't helped, and I've been working on it. It seems so weird that I would feel that way when it took me so long to get pregnant and finally am and I feel that way. I kept thinking "why don't I feel happy all the time?" Then I feel like I should be happy all the time which makes it worse, because then I feel guilty. But I also recognize I still have a life, and life is hard, and that I have all these pregnancy hormones to boot. I'm slowly coming out of it now. It seems like the past few weeks have been especially stressful, which then I feel guilty about because I don't want it to harm my baby. But I have to realize that some things are just out of my control.

Anyway, I am well into my second trimester (yeah!). My stomach problems aren't as bad, but now I've got that sweet pregnancy congestion going on all the time. I have to say that I do like getting symptoms, though while unpleasant still remind me I'm actually pregnant and not just getting fat. My belly is starting to round out but it's still not obvious that I'm pregnant. So I am 17 weeks and have an ultrasound appointment on September 22nd! So exciting! Just under three weeks and I'll get to find out the gender (hopefully). Everyone seems to think it's a girl. I'm not sure what I will have and I really detest it when people ask me what I want. Just seems unfair to have a preference when I've waited so long to have a baby. I will be excited no matter what.

I've been progressing well, but I did have some bleeding that lasted for 5 days that didn't seem to have a reason for it. I call my doctor's office and talked to a midwife because I've been working with them, and they told me to watch out for it again even though it didn't seem serious this time (no cramping along with it and it was more like spotting). But I did have to go have a rhogam shot, being a negative blood type. It wasn't too bad getting the shot, but yeah, was a little stressful.

So I am just waiting for my appointment pretty much. I've also been taking care of my husband, because he had a minor surgery last week. He was able to go back to work today, so he is recovering well. It's time for me to get back into exercise. I finally felt like I can do it again and I just got some prenatal exercise videos that I ordered so I am excited to get back into a exercise schedule! I know it will help me deal with the depression as well. I'll try to post more too!

Here Come the Waterworks...

Well, my stomach issues are finally disappearing, but while those are waning, something else has come in the fill their place. Slowly it's crept up, and now there is no stopping it. Yep, its those dang emotions. I can barely keep hold back the tears. It started out as irritability, but it's turned into waves of crying. My husband, who seemed to be bothering me a lot has left me in Washington while I stay for a few more weeks. My heart hurts and I feel lost without him. In church yesterday, I welled up the whole time in Sunday school. This morning after a rough night of not sleeping well, my Dad said it was because I didn't go for a walk yesterday, and that I should really be walking everyday. Not only that but he's be criticizing my eating habits, which by the way aren't even that bad considering I can actually stomach real food now. Excuse me for getting a package of Oreos, Dad. Someone better alert the Obesity Police, you've got a fat pregnant woman here. Yes, I've gained weight, I don't need someone reminding me of that. I thought one of the benefits of pregnancy was getting a free pass to gain weight. Anyway, I know he doesn't mean it that way, and wants to help, but considering that I've felt up to doing more this past week than in the past 2 months, it hurts this hormonal gal's feelings. I had to go lock myself in my room and cry for an hour and I'm still not sure I'm over it.

Well, that's it for now, but good news is my baby is now considered a fetus and not an embryo anymore. Making progress. And I am almost out of the first trimester! I am excited about that! I'm hoping to actually show soon instead of just having a fat tummy. Oh, well, I'm going to continue to do my best. I really am trying.

Ultrasound and Baby Update

Just a quick post today. Hubby and I are off to Washington this evening for vacation and to celebrate our 5 year anniversary. I just wanted to post the new ultrasound pic. I had a doctors appointment yesterday and he said that everything looks normal and perfect! I could definitely make out the baby's shape and saw it move, kicking those legs and moving those arms! It was so amazing. Nothing can compare. The doctor said I graduated from the fertility clinic and all the staff signed a card for me. It was so sweet!

The baby looks so much bigger. I can't believe how fast it's growing!

Ch-Ch-Changes

Well, I can definitely tell that I pregnant. Take for instance, I am writing this at 5:00 in the morning, and no, I'm not at all a morning person. But I've been waking up around 4:30 everyday hungry. And not just normal hunger that you can put off until later. No, this is like I'm starving and my stomach is about to collapse in on itself. Which is really annoying because I love sleep and hate to be interrupted. So usually the stomach wins and I trot down to the kitchen for a snack. But then it's a little harder to go back to bed right away so here I am. Not that I'm complaining. It's actually really nice to feel these changes and know that I'm growing a wee littl' one. It's reassuring in a way because the first 2 weeks I didn't really have any symptoms and I was wondering if it was really true or just some crazy fantasy. But I know that it is real. I think that I can classify my symptoms into 4 main categories:

1. Constant Hunger

2. Constant Nausea

3. Constant Gassiness

4. Constant Tiredness

Now I usually have at least two of these at once if not all. I never though you could feel nauseous, hungry and gassy at the same time. Interesting. I have to admit that I've been neglecting my blog. There are just some day where I don't feel well at all. At first, I was only really tired and thought, "Well at least I'm not sick" Then I started getting a little queasy, which then developed into all day nausea, then I thought "Well, at least I'm not throwing up". Then I threw up. It's not pleasant, but I am still really happy and nothing could ever not make me happy about being pregnant. I got my first ultrasound on Friday and got to hear the heartbeat. It was amazing, and any thoughts of discomfort and illness went right out the window. My sweet little one. It's only around the size of a blueberry and only looked like a little blob on the ultrasound, but I only can think of it as a baby and feel connected already. It really is amazing. Well, I think I'm off to bed again. I post a pic of the ultrasound later and give a little more details.

Later...

So here's the pic! There's only one little nugget in there. I was half expecting to see two little ones in there, but I made my mind up that whatever it was going to be, it would be the best for my family. I am really happy and even now I know this won't be the only child for our family. Well, since waking up for the second time this morning, I actually felt pretty good. Good enough to clean the kitchen anyway. Seems like I most days I feel like I can't do anything, so I've got to take advantage of feeling up to doing something while I can.

I have a question for anyone who has gone through fertility treatments. The nurse practitioner that gave my my ultrasound and performed the IUI told me to be on progesterone until 9 weeks, but I've been doing some research and thought that it was better to do it until 12 weeks. I asked her about it at the ultrasound and she said that the placenta is developed enough at 9 weeks, I was under the impression that it wasn't until 12 weeks. I told her about having low progesterone in the past and thought it might be better to keep on it until 12 weeks. She said that I could, and it wouldn't hurt any to do it. I just wondered if anyone was on progesterone until 9 weeks or 12 weeks and wondered if anyone had an opinion about it. Anyway, thanks!

Pregnant Pee for Charity?

The past few weeks have been interesting for me. It is definitely a change being pregnant. I actually have felt ok, just pretty tired and exercise is more challenging, but I'm trying to do at least a half hour a day of something (mainly walking or dance central). I haven't been really sick and felt just fine. That is, until a few days ago. I have some nausea, not too bad, no throwing up just an unsettle stomach. It seems like its either that or hunger. I get soo hungry now! It doesn't come on gradually either! It's like I always need something in my stomach.

Anyway, other than that, I've been doing a lot of research about pregnancy online. I came across this really cool article. In the Netherlands, there is this organization called Mothers for Mothers that collects urine from pregnant women to extract the HCG to use in a drug called Pregnyl. This drug is used in fertility treatments for women who have problems with infertility. It helps to lower the cost of fertility treatments. How cool is that? I love that someone came up with this idea because anyone that has gone through fertility treatments know how expensive it is. I would totally do this. I'm peeing all the time anyway, might as well put it to good use. Anyway, I think that is so awesome! We should definitely do this in the U.S.!

Link for the article is below:

http://thestir.cafemom.com/pregnancy/121033/a_better_use_for_pregnant