Some Inspiration

When you are dealing with infertility, there are times when you feel like giving up, and it breaks your heart. You never really want to give up, but you sometimes feel your efforts are in vain. But there are plenty of moments that keep you going, even when you are hurting inside. You can find a strength within yourself (though it may be only a tiny fraction of strength) to keep you moving on. This can come from any source really. My biggest source is my religion and my spirituality. Now, I know that there are a lot of people who are not into religion, but it really is a huge part of my life, so it will come up in this blog from time to time. And we all need something bigger than us to rely on, even if its not religion. Hey, I've done yoga and meditation and that has helped a lot. You could be into sports, or charity, or politics, or art, music, education. We all need something to keep us going.

My strength lies within my Savior, Jesus Christ. I know he lives and loves me and is always there for me. I know that I can pray to my Heavenly Father and he will listen, even when I am like "I don't understand this!". I'm grateful to be surrounded by people that share my beliefs and friends that help me and love me even when they aren't members of my church. I always find people to inspire me.

Anyway, I was reading this Old Testament Student Manual the other day. My Dad gave me one lately and I've been studying out of it. I was reading about Abraham and the trial he went through when asked to sacrifice his son, Isaac. I can't imagine anything harder to do. While reading, I came across this quote by George Q. Cannon that really stood out to me.

"Why did the Lord ask such things of Abraham?... God did no do this for His own sake for He knew by His foreknowledge what Abraham would do; but the purpose was to impress upon Abraham a lesson and to enable him to attain unto knowledge that he could not obtain in any other way. That is why God tries all of us. It is not for His own knowledge for he knows all things beforehand. He knows all your lives and everything you will do. But he tries us for our own good that we may know for ourselves; for it is most important that man should know himself"

Whether you are religious or not, I think that we can all agree that we never know our true strength until we prove to ourselves we can get through something hard. You never really know you can until you actually experience it and do it. We all have challenges, and it is the best feeling to know we can do it! And it gives up confidence to be able to do other things that are hard to. I am grateful to know this. I know that life will have its hardships and it will effect me, devastate me, but that I can get through it.

p.s. My hubby did something to make me smile last night. I went to the computer, the internet was open and found he'd been looking at what diet regulations you should follow during pregnancy. It was so sweet, he's looking out for my health, and learning about pregnancy! Aww..